Nothing can stop us

I can feel you dreamin' of me

Name:
Location: Detroit, Michigan, United States

I never much liked the flaps over zippers, needles, ovens, lawn mowers, or swimming. I love my Les Paul, and every song I've written with or without it.

30 December 2008

I can't fucking put this shit into words. FUCK, I can't fucking do it. Ok? I give up. Alright? I can't deal with any of this shit anymore. Passivepassivepassivepatientlywaitingbullshitwhatthefuck. You may as well take my shit and throw it out the window and take me to the sealed tight rooms as white as fucking paper. Dear god, I can't do it. I can't do it. I can't do it. I can't do it. I'm so lost and defeated. I'm so broken. I can't do this anymore.

23 December 2008

The Singular

Black holes are but train stations in the universe's soul
I will escape to the cosmos
My petty inhibitions hold me not from truth
And the fire that is Vega
And the cold that is the absence of light
Like a desolate night
Where you cling to the grass to keep from falling
Into the sky
I will retract myself from Earth
And keep a steady hand as I travel
And unravel the secrets of suns
And witness the birth of new stars
That cry out like a gun
With the safety securely disabled
I will escape
I will escape tonight


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I fall from great heights all the time now.

22 December 2008

Misplaced

You can slide your teeth into
You can bite with voracity
You can laugh at the syntax
Because I lack in tenacity
And if you'd like I'll protect myself
From myself and all the insides
And if you'd like I'll reject myself
I'll inspect myself
For lies
Summer's gone and the wind replaced
The way I was embraced
The way that we were chaste
All I see are miles of the snow
And everything I know
Is from so long ago
And if you'd like I will steal away
I will leave and stay
Like a castaway
And if you'd like I would touch the sun
To show you I'm the one
That I guess is overdone
So dear god
I don't understand
I don't understand
Why I've been dealt a broken hand
I throw all into the wind
I break and build but never win
I stand tall under the chin
Of some other worthy grin
And he shakes
Though he will never break in two
Because my hate is misplaced
And I allow my displacement
Again
Again
Again
I will steeply resign
Again
Again
I will defeather these wings
I will tether these dreams
And fold under again


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Oh god oh god oh god oh god oh god oh god oh god

20 December 2008

Am I Alive or Just Breathing?

Am I alive or just breathing?

Days pass by days pass by days. The broken slumber shrouds me in a haze and I float through everything lethargically. I crouch and cringe. I clutch and flinch. I fake it and I grin. You win. My flailing words fly out like cannonballs from catapults and hit your hard exterior. They just fold. They just fall away. Your skin is thicker than I ever knew it was before. I used to feel so strong in knowing. But truthfully, the ease at which I stare and long and find myself trapped inside of daydreams where I don't belong is maddening. It's damn near repulsive. And while the oceans swish behind those eyes I realize too late that I can't swim. How could I have forgotten? The most vital bit of knowledge for the seas! My flesh swells up and I rot upon the beach.

Does sound get sucked into an unseen black hole between you and I? You swore to never say this and to never do that but promises are fairy tales from your mouth. My skin is shrinking and I am stretching sore limbs. It's getting tighter. It's getting harder just to breathe.

Am I alive or just breathing?

How could the mask fall so suddenly from your face with no fair warnings? It could be tempting to launch myself into the wind and hope to find your arms just close enough to the ground to break my crash. To keep me breathing. To keep me hooked to those machines. But impulse is not instinct and I am not a savage.

But I am nothing but a savage with animal nature. My amino acids pining for exuberance. We mix our wrinkled liars faces in with wax to preserve the memories. And we preserve them well. The ink fills in the lines and gaping holes in the stories. Our skin falls off. We shed in wine.

I know it will be days or maybe weeks before our courage nests comfortably in this storm. I know you hate the way that it all tastes, but we must continue to dine on guilt and unhappiness. Guilt. We are the guilty and we are criminals of all.

We build our towers on shaky ground and I still ponder what the horizon keeps a secret. Could it be a solid center? Could it be a proper structure? I feel so weak in not knowing a damn thing anymore. I resist the urge of a passionate crime. I resist all urges for the months between breaths.

Am I alive or just breathing?

18 December 2008

Oscillator Operator

I think I may be mistaken
I thought you were the antidote
A cure for imperfection
Not just an awkward anecdote
Maybe you'd like to run away too
But the child inside is weak
You'd only make it to the corner
Because your will is what
You never seem to keep
Your strength is what you never seem to have
Your sensibility is lacking
But your gryphon wings don't fail
Your grinning face prevails
I should have jumped and I should have bailed
Before your winning eyebrows arched
I could live in the clouds
Where no one else is around
And all the world back down
On the ground
Would envy me in rain
But concrete is more stable
Than a gaseous stately castle
And so I think I must be wrong
I think I must be lost
With a loss of words
And no appropriate actions to win me back
And if I am so very wrong
Then playing right would make it worse
And running swiftly would not reverse
The fact that all that we end up with
Are tall tales and vicious looks


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How dare you.

15 December 2008

The Third Runner

We all die, but we all rise
I see the cannonballs wave red flags
And we sleep tonight unalarmed.
These physical vandals
These crafty magicians
With their long distance Runners
And their sheep-skin scrolls
I understand.
But this point I've missed
Goes reminisced
And told in circles of white.
Surrounded, captured while asleep
Opaque mastery.
Suffering is suffering and
Crashing in is crashing in
And the waves lap at my composure.
Frantic glances and flippant thoughts
Give way to a stuttering silence.
We may be one tonight
But we are independent organs and limbs
All working ignorant of each other.
And as these massive weights collapse
And rain upon my shaky plans
The piercing brown and gold do cause
A splintering, choking silence.
We drink our alabaster wine and contemplate
The blooming complications
Of our overlapping indecisions.
I better not fight it
But you better not cave in
Because to let me loose so easily
Would be to shake the balance
Of the Runner's strict mentality
And the nature of all design.

14 December 2008

Features

Captain, my Captain
We are reaching heights unseen
We are altering speed of sound
These meters measure no metric motion.
So if you please, my Captain
May we fasten to these gates
Our tongues are dripping with distaste
We cannot tell that which is clean.
Greatness is the sacrifice
These bearded men speak wisely
And their filters work in cryptic ways
So that if they steal away blindly
These stations remain unmanned.
So Captain, my Captain
If we scale the highest mountain
Will there be no obstacles
That will sustain our shrill anxiety?
And if the sea does reflect the sun
Then if we crash above the water
Will we burn, or will we shudder?
We test and leave no wreckage

07 December 2008

Future Girl

Little girl, don't pull those wings,
You must let the ants fight too,
And if your anger finds no passage,
My chest is waiting here for you.
Sail across these twilight skies,
Your hair all tangled up,
My hands all wrangled,
Up inside my pockets,
Where every key slips from a hole.
Little girl, don't twist your neck that far,
To see the past,
It's much too far away for your,
Imperfect eyes to understand.
These airy thoughts of sheep,
Do stop the flow,
Yet make me weep.
Oh, little girl, with your skin of gold,
I'll let you know when arms are open.
I stand before the vaulting field,
Preparing for a momentous leap,
And you whisper into my listening ears,
'The silence keeps me company.'
You future girl, you little girl,
Their shackles don't restrain you,
Spiral notebooks don't contain you,
And we settle for nothing less.

01 December 2008

Prowess

Laughing at the clouds
I stumble on the cracks in the sidewalk
They get revenge
And the sympathetic birds do chirp for me
As I pass, then plotting my act
Melancholy chairs support your weight
The consequential burden
Of your insignificant prowess
Sink in my moat of red
That took me years to conjure up
I follow, you follow, and we continue on
These paths that lead us to nowhere
Except the location of the past
As time is infinite
These drifting footprints merely distract
You from the ever present cracks in your persona
You're cracking up
And ever so slightly I peer inside
Acidic blood diffuses swiftly in your stream
But trapped are the lies that disrupt your breathing
They constrict your movements
And I can't help but wonder if you're just pretending
Are you even listening?
My polyester skin holds onto heat as best it can
And the only sun within reach is your fingertip
But what I need is not what I want
And what you want is all that matters
Because need must take the backseat
As the world continues spinning
But if the spin does crawl and fade
These needs do drug and pave their way
To the top of the once nurtured agenda
Oh, tell me if it burns
Tell me if it hurts
Because my nerves are so advanced that they can feel
Just about anything
But alas, wood rots in rain
And this downpour raged so valiantly
If only to cause your throne to crumble
So tell me if it burns, dear thorn
Tell me if it burns

Incorporeality

Coughing up the tar I gained from you,
I hope these lungs aren't close to dead,
But if they fail I swear I will,
Learn to live in the sea.
The ecstasy of inner peace evades me.
My ink-induced facade does dissipate,
And limbs are left behind for you to take,
And cling upon your sleeves as trophies.
We try to laugh about it,
But whispering into megaphones just amplifies
How fake and fearful we all sound,
When faced with brittle mirrors.
I've seen through the cheap disguise.
And I've heard all your alibis,
But still the fact remains,
That you are just the same.
And you may toil, twist, and tumble,
Just to test my weary will,
But callous souls don't grow on,
Nonexistant fallacies.
This tar does stain the snow,
That once matched the white skies,
That once promised me a home,
Where vision was not temporary.
The body beats itself perpetually,
And as you infiltrate,
These carnal instincts overlook,
What does indeed do harm.
But you just want to believe in something,
You might rather forget it all,
And move on to a linear lifestyle,
Speckled with structured transgressions.
We let the fears all get to us,
And you are no exception to the rule,
And as you weigh the pros and cons,
You accidentally erase the titles to your charts.
Lost and overwhelmed by the cost,
I am seeking for the motivating force,
That allowed me piercing eyes,
That granted a sharpened tongue.
The sun may melt this snow,
And perhaps even the coordination,
Between the thoughts and actions.
You slide between these lines, so hidden, so afraid.
But I see through it all,
And I see you,
I see through the stuttering motions,
And I see through you.